“Clutter is nothing more than postponed decisions.” ― Barbara Hemphill
Over the past several years I have gone through a constant process of decluttering. Last year it culminated in me getting rid of 1000 items in one year. That was everything from pens to a wedding dress. I was moving from a four floor house in the UK to an apartment in Paris that was less than 300 square feet. This year I stopped calculating. I knew I could not keep excessive items, because there literally was no space for them. But today I gave away several items, and I felt a tiny sting.
One of these items was a backpack, which I have worn the past two years on the Camino de Santiago. These were walking pilgrimages that lasted for days. It held significance for me, and I would have kept that backpack for longer, but it began to fall apart. I also gave away a tank top, which I wore on many first dates this past year. It was a flattering color, but I admit it has seen better days. I parted with a light sweater which brought warmth on numerous trips.
I realize for me decluttering is an ongoing cleansing I must do. Certain items are easy for me to get rid of, but others I have been putting off. I want to keep these items until they must be disposed of. But I can’t help but wonder why. Why am I waiting till these items are in torn conditions? Don’t I deserve more than this? I am not struggling. I have more items to utilize. These items do not have to last forever, so why do I wait until they are totally worn to release them? I wonder “What does that say about me and how I value myself?”
How am I trying to show my value and worth to the world if I continue to wear these clothes to the ground? If I keep everything, there is no space to let in new experiences. Having these thoughts, I wanted to make a different choice. And with that I let them go.
“Clutter is anything that does not support your better self.” ― Eleanor Brownn
