Saturday Night

Saturday Night Live has been a show I had always admired. A variety sketch comedy show with celebrity hosts, musical guests, political and social commentary, and humor that can connect a nation. Watching the show growing up was a way to connect with friends, love interests, family members, and colleagues.  It blows my mind the talent that continues to hail from this show throughout the years.

Recently a film was released entitled Saturday Night about the first ever Saturday Night Live taping, and how it nearly lost it’s slot to a Johnny Carson rerun. The film follows creator Lorne Michaels and the unknown comedians that were going to change weekend television. We witness the chaos that ensues in trying to coral a group of rule breaking one liner comedians, writers, and staff before the first taping. One truly gets a sense of how much work from dozens of people that are needed to make a new show succeed, when the network expected it to fail.

As I watched the film, it reminded me how many groups of people embody a similar dynamic in their own work settings.  Talent collaborating and joining together for a particular mission, despite the external naysayers who expect the worst from a group’s collective effort.  This is true not just of comedians or actors, but of a front and back of the house staff at a Michelin restaurant, a Special Operations flying squadron and their maintenance crew, a psychological staff at a community mental health center, a surgical team ready to perform a difficult procedure, a spiritual retreat center holding space for retreat attendees, a fire department working overtime containing spread from a recent fire, or a group of teachers ready to start a new year.  For a moment in time, these people join together for the purpose of serving others. All skills are needed, welcome, and are joined in unison.

Although I am sure the events that led to the first Saturday Night Live taping were erratic, insane, and chaotic, it can be appreciated afar.  At a distance, we witness the orchestra conductor Lorne Michels hearing the notes of each of the musicians individually and collectively.  There is a line in the film prior to the taping, where Gilda Radnor says to John Belushi “Do you have nostalgia for a moment when you are still in it? I mean like you are in the moment but you are also looking back on it, like right now I’m here right now, but I’m also thinking about this moment 20 years from when we’re walking by this ice rink. Maybe it’s Christmas, and our kids are dragging us by our pinkies, presents loaded on our shoulders, all we can think about is this moment right before we went on tv.”  In the midst of big unifying moments, do we catch snapshots like this? Do we have nostalgia for a time as it is happening, knowing it cannot be replicated in the same way?

There’s a beauty with this film, it serves as a reminder of how we all need each other to pull difficult tasks off. We all play a role, nobody’s is more important than another.   This film captures a day in the lives of people before they hit it big, their passion for the arts, avante garde thinking, rivalries, support, laughter, human struggle, and effort to bring this show onto air.

Over the years, I’ve been lucky enough to meet some actors from SNL while living in Los Angeles.  People I watched in my living room during my junior high years, I was able to share my atmosphere with, just for a moment. Although I lived on 49th street in New York City, the same street as NBC studios, I never did make it to a taping. Perhaps one day, I will walk on stage where the magic has happened for decades and creatives continue to push the boundaries in an effort to make the American audience temporarily reprieve from their everyday problems and laugh. But for now I can watch this film, and appreciate the guts, glory, courage, and faith it had to put the initial production on. And in the meantime, I can take Gilda Radnor’s words of advice and have nostalgia and savor the moments I am living in as they are occurring.

UP

On a flight from LA to Tokyo, I finally watched the Pixar film UP.  Generally, I am not one to love animated films, but my brother boasted about this and I had to see it.  Ten minutes into the film, I knew the entirety of it would pull at my heart (or balloon) strings.

It’s with older age, I can appreciate the rich nature that the sentimentality of these films have to offer. There’s such a bittersweetness in watching this elder character carry out his hero’s journey. The storyline begins with two lead characters, Carl and Ellie, who meet in childhood bonding over their love for adventure and explorer Charles Muntz, whose life work was to venture and conquer the unknown in South America. Within a several minute montage, one witnesses Carl and Ellie’s love affair, marriage, home renovation, career, miscarriage, celebrations, and daily rituals.  We witness the characters connect, dream, deal with setbacks, surprise one another, age into their retirement years, slow down, and eventually we reach her death.    Since childhood, Ellie utilized techniques of manifestation to live an adventurous life, through speaking dreams into her reality, creating a book that served as a vision board, and painting out her future reality in South America.  But life gave them setbacks, whether it be their finances, health, car problems, home repairs, or other mishaps.   Ellie and Carl never did make it to South America, particularly to Paradise Falls as they envisioned they would have their home one day. The lead character Carl Fredricksen vowed to carry out Ellie’s dreams which were displayed in her Book of Adventure. 

As the film progresses, Carl (who appears to be his 70s or 80s) is being pushed out of the home he had built with his wife, and forced into a retirement home.  Yet within him still stirs a wild desire to live life more fully, and he is willing to put up creative fight.    It’s the call to adventure.  A threshold is crossed, obstacles arise.  Sidekicks and villains appear as we navigate being in the belly of the whale.  Transformation ensues and atonement, and he eventually returns home. The whole hero’s journey was exemplified in UP.

In our own lives, although we may set out goals for how we want to lives to go, our plans  pivot for one reason or another. We may meet our heroes and are disappointed.  We attain our dreams, and then realize we must let them go to allow our current life to unfold. Sentient beings enter our life in unexpected ways who may need our support.  We are guided and taken care of, by mentors and surprising characters.  There is a realization that caring for others sometimes must take precedence over our own egoic goals.

At one point in the film, Carl is reviewing his wife’s Book of Adventure, which he assumed just included images of their travel dreams.  But as he allowed himself to look further, he found she had posted images of their happy daily life together, which was full of connection and laughter.  At the end of the book, she signed a message to him “Thank you for the adventure, now go have an adventure of your own.” It was her blessing from beyond.  Sometimes we are living with the ghost of who we once were, in trying to honor another we can constrict what is emerging in the current moment.

There is strength in letting go of what we once hoped to allow a new creative opportunity to flow.  Tears streamed down my face as the film neared it’s ending.  It was surprising how poignant the life lessons that were exemplified in a cartoon.  Whenever we engage with a bittersweet piece of art, we cant help but reflect on how this impact our lives.  Watching films such as this can be a contemplative practice, noting how it lands with us today, what emotions arise, and how do we want to direct the narrative of our own stories from this point forward.  Films such as this can be catalyst to course correct one’s journey to live in alignment with one’s current authentic values, not those of the past.